literature

and sour

Deviation Actions

Published: Nov 3, 2010

1.8K Views

Literature Text

_{i've taken this habit of reading
the same poem over and over again
just because i need to tell myself
that i don't make all of this up.

          baby, i would have had you, trust me.
          my senses would've abandoned everyone;
          i wouldn't care what they would say -
          i'm so tired of hiding.

          i'm so tired of lying.
                    (no. i'm not okay.)

i've taken this habit of crying
the same tears over and over again
just because i'm that pathetic and
my chemistry homework looked dry.

          i can't get rid of the image:
          you, safe and happy in my arms
          and a dick between my legs.
          but you said you loved me.

          but you said you loved me just the way i am.
                     (i'm going to cry again.)

i've taken this habit of knowing
that the same smell will be
on my fingertips every time
that i think about this.

          i wanted to smell you too;
          hell, i wanted to lick you.
          i wanted to memorize every corner -
          you and your small figure.

          you and your damn beautiful figure.
                       (but that's saved for him, right?)

i've taken this habit of wanting
this fantasy i've written in my head;
you taking my breath away with joy
every single time i kiss you.

          instead, you take my breath away
          because i lose my breath to all this
          stupid crying, and i always
          get so tired right after i cry.

          can i cuddle with you and sleep?
                        (and dream of your soft breathing in my ear?)

          will i ever know the taste of your lips in this lifetime?}